mushy moments

Ok, this blog is going to be kind of silly but it's what I'm thinking today and I think it needs to be blogged. Tuesday night I had dinner with 2 very amazing people. Katy Plume (did I spell that right?) and Tisha Warburton. They have done a lot for me in my life and I have so much respect and love for these girls. I got to thinking about how I really feel that my friends had a deep impact on me as a person. Things weren't always perfect for any of us but we were there for each other. We had times of distance but I always knew they'd be there if I asked them too. I am a confident (maybe overly confident) person, a strong person, and I have faith in the world, I think these things came, at least partially, from my friends. They brought me up when I was down, they held me when I cried, and I truely believe they will be there forever. We'll continue to laugh together untill we're well beyond wrinkled. So Katy, Tisha, Maegan, Ali, and Dani thank you for always being there when I need you and I hope you know I love you forever.

SKILLS

Ok. So my favorite part is Skills!!! I love her! Now that we have a house we can have a puppy!!! Good guess on the nursery Burlene because she is definitely as spoiled as a baby. (and we actually do have a crib, but no I'm not prego it was just good planning on Casey's part.) Skills is almost 11 weeks old and she is a Black Lab/Viszla mix. So she is all black but her black hair has this red tint to it in the sun. And no, we did not die her hair red. She is so super cute and Casey would like to train her to be a bird dog but I think I ruined her. I'm not so good at discipline unless she's biting someone or peeing on something. Other than that I let her run-a-muck. But she is seriously my baby. I made Logan come sleep with her when we went to Vegas and I try to take her everywhere we go. She also sleeps with us right now so that she'll lick our faces when she has to pee, She's quite the bed hog. Her favorite sleeping postion is laying on her back (she thinks she's a person), she stalks her toys and then pounces (she's part lion), when your holding a toy she wants she'll roll her body (she's part crocodile), she loves to climb on your sholder (she's part parrot), and she tends to waddle when she's being lazy (that's the part of her that's duck). All in all she's a very strange dog which fits in perfect with us! Oh and she LOVES people, Especially kids. She'll try to jump out of the window of the car if she sees someone out there. But yes. That's our baby. She's growing by the second so enjoy the pictures.

Yay!

Wow. It has been a crazy month! We love love LOVE having a house. It is fabulous! We can be as loud as we want! We have a yard to play in and we went from a crowded apartement to a naked house. It has been so much fun! of course we are still not unpacked all of the way and some of the rooms still need a little touch up paint but hey, we'll get there. I must admit that I love having a yard. We got to play football in the rain with Dani and Brady and It was SO MUCH FUN! we had to ring out our clothes and hair afterward and poor Casey and Dani took a couple of falls that looked painful. Of course me and Casey would have won but then Casey says next score wins and so Brady and Dani claim that they won. ;) I also love that I'm not afraid to get on the floor in our house; I feel fine laying on the floor in the living room, the bedroom, the loft, and I'm not afraid I'm going to stand up with spiders dead on me or pokey stickers. Now, I haven't mentioned my absolutely FAVORITE part about our new house yet. Most people know but still, I'm not telling until I can get pictures. I also want to talk about our trip to Vegas. So, in the famous words of Arnold Schwartseneger (sp?), I'll be back. :)

Fear

This quote is my favorite quote of all time. It empowers me. haha yeah that's cheesy I know, but it really does. I gave this quote to my Young Women on the last lesson I taught and I really hope that they listen to it. Any way here it is, even though I'm sure every one has already heard it. It's called "Our Greatest Fear" and it's by Marianne Williamson and was also used in a powerful speech by Nelson Mandela.

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously giveother people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear,our presence automatically liberates others.

We Should Jam Out

So this is going to be a random post. It's actually my ode to music (did I write that correctly?). Any one who has heard me sing would not know that music can speak to my soul like nothing else can. Music can completely change my mood or sympathize with my struggles. Many bands speak to my soul. Colin Raye was one of my first CD's I ever purchased, I was like 10 and he has spoken to my soul ever since. Any who... my list could go on and on, it really just depends on my mood. Lately Hinder has been my angry music, when I want to feel girly I'll listen to Taylor Swift, when I want to feel like I can maybe sing a little I listen to sugarland, when I want to totally jam out I listen to a mix of fantastic nineties songs mixed with some early 2000's that Boomy made for me. Any way, I was thinking about this today as I was listening to our new Shinedown CD, The Sound of Madness. If you have not heard this CD I recommend it. They have an emotional poetic-ness about them, You can totally feel their emotion. Any who, Sorry if you've ever heard me sing, but, it's not going to stop! :)

Happy Birthday to me!

So... every one guess what I'm getting for my birthday. now I'll tell you...................................... A HOUSE! me and Casey close on our new house on May 4. check it out http://www.spanishforkutahhomeforsale.blogspot.com/ This is where me and Casey will call home for the next chapter in our lives. haha that sounded so cheesey. So for those of you who have talked to us lately this has basically consumed all of our free time. And yes we have been accepted on 2 others that we later backed out on, so no, you don't have to believe me when I say we WILL take this one. But, for the record, no bad has come with this one, only good so it's definite. Any way I'm insanely nervous (change is hard for me, commitment is hard for me, buying a house is like a nightmare!) and Casey is Insanely excited! especially after this weekend when we discovered leak number 3 in our apartment (upstairs neighbor has a leak in there water heater. this has caused a lovely musty smell throughout our entire apartment.). Any way we are super excited. now I can have a dog! well, when I have more time to play with one. Oh and yes, that is a tramp that you see, so of course we are going to have some killer sleepovers on the tramp. Casey doesn't understand my excitement for that fact but some other people understand my joy. But whether you like to sleep on the tramp or not that deck will make a killer barbecue; so be ready to eat some meat! :)

*Love Languages*

So I've been wanting to read the book "the Five Love Languages", by Gary Chapman, for a while now and I finally did. I made it a school project so I kinda killed two birds with one stone. (I will warn you now that this blog is just a total rambling of thought so feel free to stop reading right now. ) the Five Love Languages are;1)Words of Affirmation 2)Quality Time 3)Receiving gifts 4)Acts of Service and 5)Physical touch. This book really got me thinking and I think it really helped me to learn some things. I thought instantly that I was words of affirmation because, well, I love words. I love to speak I love to listen to others speak, and I think the ability for expression is a great gift. Well surprise, I'm totally quality time, it's not what people say it's that they took the time out to talk to me and spend time with me. I'm also a little physical touch. And Casey I thought was gifts, that's how he shows people he cares, it's how he tries to get love, he'll buy you dinner, presents, movie tickets (he paid for a lot of me and Ali's stuff while we were dating...) well after reading further even though that's how Casey shows love it's not how he receives it (whew, what a relief for a penny pincher like me!) Casey is totally physical touch and words of affirmation. A back massage or scratch or a belly rub with a "you look hot" mean more to him than any present I could give. I also learned that I have been spoiled rotten. Casey has been fulfilling all of these love languages, for almost 2 years now! Hopefully now he knows my language he won't have to try so hard (maybe he'll spend less money on me?! That'd be nice... haha, like I said I'm spoiled rotten.)
So anyway, then we get into this little debate with the fam on Sunday; are all men physical touch? yes all men need sex, it's biology. But is that more important than anything else? Most of the family thinks that most or all men are. I disagree. I think a little physical touch is important to everyone, especially kids, but that doesn't mean it's the most important thing for showing love. I think my Dad's is acts of service, but mom disagrees (ew!). Any way it gave me a lot to think about and I recommend this book to couples. I think if you want to express love you have to be willing to do things that aren't for you; if not a void will form and love can diminish. I just wish I could figure out my mother in laws love language, I want her to know we love and appreciate her but I don't know how. I'll keep my eyes open. But yes if I randomly tell you "oh your love language is.... " now you know why. I'm only slightly crazy. I'm just trying to solve the "are all men physical touch?" mystery, I'll be psychoanalyzing everyone til I know.