Fear

This quote is my favorite quote of all time. It empowers me. haha yeah that's cheesy I know, but it really does. I gave this quote to my Young Women on the last lesson I taught and I really hope that they listen to it. Any way here it is, even though I'm sure every one has already heard it. It's called "Our Greatest Fear" and it's by Marianne Williamson and was also used in a powerful speech by Nelson Mandela.

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously giveother people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear,our presence automatically liberates others.

We Should Jam Out

So this is going to be a random post. It's actually my ode to music (did I write that correctly?). Any one who has heard me sing would not know that music can speak to my soul like nothing else can. Music can completely change my mood or sympathize with my struggles. Many bands speak to my soul. Colin Raye was one of my first CD's I ever purchased, I was like 10 and he has spoken to my soul ever since. Any who... my list could go on and on, it really just depends on my mood. Lately Hinder has been my angry music, when I want to feel girly I'll listen to Taylor Swift, when I want to feel like I can maybe sing a little I listen to sugarland, when I want to totally jam out I listen to a mix of fantastic nineties songs mixed with some early 2000's that Boomy made for me. Any way, I was thinking about this today as I was listening to our new Shinedown CD, The Sound of Madness. If you have not heard this CD I recommend it. They have an emotional poetic-ness about them, You can totally feel their emotion. Any who, Sorry if you've ever heard me sing, but, it's not going to stop! :)

Happy Birthday to me!

So... every one guess what I'm getting for my birthday. now I'll tell you...................................... A HOUSE! me and Casey close on our new house on May 4. check it out http://www.spanishforkutahhomeforsale.blogspot.com/ This is where me and Casey will call home for the next chapter in our lives. haha that sounded so cheesey. So for those of you who have talked to us lately this has basically consumed all of our free time. And yes we have been accepted on 2 others that we later backed out on, so no, you don't have to believe me when I say we WILL take this one. But, for the record, no bad has come with this one, only good so it's definite. Any way I'm insanely nervous (change is hard for me, commitment is hard for me, buying a house is like a nightmare!) and Casey is Insanely excited! especially after this weekend when we discovered leak number 3 in our apartment (upstairs neighbor has a leak in there water heater. this has caused a lovely musty smell throughout our entire apartment.). Any way we are super excited. now I can have a dog! well, when I have more time to play with one. Oh and yes, that is a tramp that you see, so of course we are going to have some killer sleepovers on the tramp. Casey doesn't understand my excitement for that fact but some other people understand my joy. But whether you like to sleep on the tramp or not that deck will make a killer barbecue; so be ready to eat some meat! :)

*Love Languages*

So I've been wanting to read the book "the Five Love Languages", by Gary Chapman, for a while now and I finally did. I made it a school project so I kinda killed two birds with one stone. (I will warn you now that this blog is just a total rambling of thought so feel free to stop reading right now. ) the Five Love Languages are;1)Words of Affirmation 2)Quality Time 3)Receiving gifts 4)Acts of Service and 5)Physical touch. This book really got me thinking and I think it really helped me to learn some things. I thought instantly that I was words of affirmation because, well, I love words. I love to speak I love to listen to others speak, and I think the ability for expression is a great gift. Well surprise, I'm totally quality time, it's not what people say it's that they took the time out to talk to me and spend time with me. I'm also a little physical touch. And Casey I thought was gifts, that's how he shows people he cares, it's how he tries to get love, he'll buy you dinner, presents, movie tickets (he paid for a lot of me and Ali's stuff while we were dating...) well after reading further even though that's how Casey shows love it's not how he receives it (whew, what a relief for a penny pincher like me!) Casey is totally physical touch and words of affirmation. A back massage or scratch or a belly rub with a "you look hot" mean more to him than any present I could give. I also learned that I have been spoiled rotten. Casey has been fulfilling all of these love languages, for almost 2 years now! Hopefully now he knows my language he won't have to try so hard (maybe he'll spend less money on me?! That'd be nice... haha, like I said I'm spoiled rotten.)
So anyway, then we get into this little debate with the fam on Sunday; are all men physical touch? yes all men need sex, it's biology. But is that more important than anything else? Most of the family thinks that most or all men are. I disagree. I think a little physical touch is important to everyone, especially kids, but that doesn't mean it's the most important thing for showing love. I think my Dad's is acts of service, but mom disagrees (ew!). Any way it gave me a lot to think about and I recommend this book to couples. I think if you want to express love you have to be willing to do things that aren't for you; if not a void will form and love can diminish. I just wish I could figure out my mother in laws love language, I want her to know we love and appreciate her but I don't know how. I'll keep my eyes open. But yes if I randomly tell you "oh your love language is.... " now you know why. I'm only slightly crazy. I'm just trying to solve the "are all men physical touch?" mystery, I'll be psychoanalyzing everyone til I know.

Colors!

So every year at the Krishna temple in Spanish Fork they have a Color Festival. So this year me and Michelle decided we were going to go check it out. It was crazy!!! there were so many people there! it was nuts! we got there a little late and I was rushed to get to a bridal shower so I really didn't get to explore the temple and the festivities like I wanted but it was still really cool. it was like a giant concert, people were crowd surfing and and it was crazy loud. All the while everyone was covered in colored corn starch. Yes, I said corn starch, we always thought it was chalk but nope! What they do is the burn the epitaph which is a symbol of a witch who brought evil or something but was stopped by her brother. (yes I know I shouldn't even try to explain if I don't really know, so check it out for yourself. if you google "color Festival" it comes up but add spanish fork if you want to narrow it down to this one.)

So here are some pics of me and Casey at the festival. Michelle didn't want to be posted on my blog and Jenny Frances has some more pics but these will give you an idea. Sorry the bottom one is so creepy but I was trying really hard not to blink because I do that a lot in pictures.

Oh and P.S. Casey's a hater and hated all of the "cut class not frogs" and "save the animals" type stuff. But I think he just didn't get to know the culture enough.

Go Bruins!

So Logans team (as in Salt Lake Community College) took the National Junior College Championship! woohoo! Me and Casey crammed in mom and dad's computer room with Luke and Missy and listened to the game. Man was it intense, they were down by like 16 and half time and I will admit, I lost faith. But then, the family would say it was Logan that picked up the tempo but no matter how it happened Salt Lake hit a flow and won! yay! we're all way excited about it and really proud of Logan. We got to watch him on the news (wearing orange shoes haha! oh logan...) and now everyone on the team is getting more looks from colleges and yeah it's pretty cool. The first picture is the team!

It's been a really long time since I've blogged anything because I've been waiting for pictures. I'm a slacker. So I'm kind of putting two blogs together since they sort of tie together.

Like a month ago me and Casey got to go to Idaho with the family for Logans region tournament. Yes, I know Idaho is lame and we shouldn't have been so excited but we got to see Lance and Lexi and the Kids and it's so fun to get my crazy family all together! Ruby got sick and threw up and poor Lexi had a stress fracture but despite these things it was a blast! We got to swim lots and Carter and Cole are basically unseperable. All in all it was a great weekend and I had millions of pictures so here are just a few. :)

Childish

So quite frequently Casey shakes his head at me for my childish behaviors. Mostly he supports them and just kisses me for being crazy. So here are the confessions for the day even though most people already know these things about me. I've always liked this picture from our wdding. I thought it was appropriate. :)

• I still sleep with a stuffed animal. His name is Hershey and he sleeps with me and Casey.


• I still have a "wubby" and I love it (my green football helmet blanket). Since I now have Casey I don't need it all the time anymore.... only when there's no Casey or I'm sick.


• When I have a bad day or I'm sick I watch Disney movies. And yes I have most of them memorized. And yes I sing out loud with every song.


• I still run and jump on my bed when it's dark. It's a habit from youth when I thought a giant rat was under my bed.


• I love to jump in puddles and play in the rain. Now many people will say this is not childish, just a good time, but some disagree.


• I wish I had a princess back pack. And I wish that grown ups could wear tee-shirts with characters on them. I think some ones favorite character shows a lot about there personality. I would wear superman one day, pocohantas the next and pinky and the brain would be tossed some where in there as well.


• This one I wouldn't say is "childish" more like pre-teen. I read books that are totally easy reads. I don't like books that make me think too much. Right now I'm reading "vampire Diaries".

Well that's enough for today. I'd like to do a spot light weekly of my heroes. I have so many, but I'd like to get pictures first. Hopefully that'll start soon!